Where Did September Go?

I just glanced at a calendar this morning and was surprised that we're at the end of the month already. I write dates on my checks but seldom think visually about where we are in the course of the month. I'm strange.

Anyway, before you know it October will be gone, and we'll be turning those clocks back and I'll be drowning in darkness. Sure don't care for the shorter days. Sure don't care for the fact that I've not accomplished nearly what I wanted this year writing-wise.

Now, here's one for all you amateur (and professional--should I be that lucky to have one read this) psychologists: What makes a person fear success and how do you overcome it?

I have been talking about this with friends, especially as regards my writing. After I published my first piece in ByLine magazine, it was a year before I wrote much of anything, much less tried to sell it. This year, I was going great guns till I got all the good news from the OWFI contest and sold an article to The Writer's Room magazine, and then every bit of my energy dried up and blew away. Then I had all that excitement with Barefoot Books, and I really think that the entire reason the book wasn't presented for publication was because the editor I was working with ended up leaving for some mysterious reason. I even submitted that for OWFI and got an honorable mention on the MS there--but I'm just having an awful time getting it back out there for others to look at and maybe love too. (Others who can send me money!!! LOL!) I've started a copywriting course, and I "get it." I know I have a lot of skills to practice and polish yet, but I could do this. I have my first assignment pretty much written and ready to send off, but every time I look at it there is something else that I need to do to make it better and then I find myself thinking that if I hold on to it one more day I'll find something else that I can tweak. I a nut case. I really am.

But anyway, I took a survey over on Tickle when it was e-Mode on "What's Your Deepest Fear" and sure enough--it came up Fear of Success, and then fed me a trickle (that should be the name of the site!) of information and wanted me to buy more. Maybe I should have. But I stuck it in a paper pile and forgot about it till I read it yesterday. Now I'm intrigued because I've recognized the problem. I'd just like to know what causes it and what the solution(s) are.

Looks like I have research to do. There's an article in this somewhere isn't there? :)