Saturday, April 02, 2005

Springing Forward

So much is going on around me that seems profound and altering. Between the massive news coverage of Shiavo and the Pope to little hometown happenings that somehow seem the largest of all. In the midst of it all, life goes on with deals on tractors, and washing cars and changing clocks. Change, change, change. The only constant.

I have mouths to feed that belong to people who are probably wondering what on earth I'm doing back here. But I just don't want this to get too far away. I need to be sharp by the end of the month. I've scheduled an appointment with an agent at the end of the month. I don't want my writing to be a distant friend when that time arrives. There is an infusion of confidence that I feed from when my creative engine is purring. I want that to bolster me. When I think of the potential of doing something that I dearly love and turning it into coins that we can put to good use.... And who knows, we may need those coins worse than I think we do. When we heard on the news last night that the predictions we could see the price of a barrel of crude top $100, I'm thinking--that's drastic. That means more for everything that uses gasoline to ship or make. No wonder you can't make an airline reservation more than six months in advance.

I really need to go. I hope this little bit of something is better than a whole lot of nothing.....

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

The Year of the Book Continues

Well, there's hope for The Year of The Book yet. I had almost given up. The first three months of this year compared with the first three months of last were pretty dismal. I was a great deal more creative and found more time to write. More than that, the urge was there. I've had to do a lot of work this year just to get a weak flame burning.

I know part of it is because I didn't have a plan. Not like last year's. Every month I set out goals and steps to reach them and I have yet to do that for this year, other than give it its title. So serious planning is on my agenda for the next week.

To kick things off, thanks to the encouragement of my writing buddies at workshop today, I scheduled an appointment with a literary agent at this year's OWFI conference. You can picture me shivering in my shoes here. I know I have work to do, things to prepare, a pitch to iron out, and stuff I'm not even aware of yet I'm sure. All before the end of next month. Boy did that ever creep up on me fast.

My first choice for an agent specializes in both picture books and young adult work. Sounds right up my alley at least in terms of age. I'm in the process of trying to find what they've represented in the past to see if I'm hitting the genre right, but it's hard to find them. The books they listed with Writer's Market aren't in my library except for one. There is an article coming out in the 5/05 issue of Writer that was written by the two agents who run this agency. They listed that on their website as a source to check in order to determine what they're looking for. We'll see....

At any rate, onward and upward. Last year was a bookends year--the start and the end were the best creatively. Perhaps this will be a better-late-than-never year. I have the prelims to do on my next NaNo attempt and this to iron out. I feel wind beneath my wings.

Thanks as always to my writing buddies!! Couldn't do it without you!

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

My Hopless Heart

My son changes his internet sign-in name frequently. Last week it bemoaned the passing of yet another spring break. This week it seems to be celebrating song lyrics.

This afternoon, we were attempting to find an address he had lost. When we lived in CT back in 1986-1991, we lived around the corner from some dear friends who attended the same congregation we did. They are Italian, and their son and mine enjoyed one another thoroughly, even though there was a three-year age gap, J being older.

We shared all sorts of little memories. Like the clown suit J wore when he did his acrobatics routine for a tumbling recital. He passed it on to A when he outgrew it. Even though it was way too big, A loved putting on that costume, complete with the red foam ball with the slit just perfect for his little nose. I have a picture of him in front of a huge split-leaf philodendron in that clown suit that is just precious. Thank goodness for elastic at the wrists and ankles or he'd probably have ended his brief life just trying to walk around in the thing.

That was the same recital in which J's older sister danced ballet and wanted more than anything for her hair to be French braided for the occasion. Never having done it in my life before, and wanting rather badly at the time to know what it might be like to have a girl in the house again, I did my best to do my very first French braiding. It turned out much better than I ever expected. (No they aren't that hard, but I'm not that coordinated either.)

One of the fondest memories I have of them was when they invited us and a visiting brother over for dinner one evening. You talk about good food! We spent the entire evening around the dinner table. We'd talk awhile and the next course would come from the kitchen. Talk some more, eat some more. Clear down to dessert and time to go home. When I saw the closing of the Night in Tuscany video that Andrea Bochelli did, I immediately thought of our evening with the Vigliottis and knew we had experienced a true Italian meal. It was absolutely heavenly; one of the most enjoyable evenings in memory.

Unfortunately, when we came home to OK, we didn't keep in touch well. Last we heard from them, the family had taken a trip back to Italy and A received a postcard from J. That was probably 1992. I think they did know that A was born; that was '92.

At any rate, we had some friends contemplating a move to CT who were wondering where they might park their travel trailer when they got there, so we got on the phone with the Vigliottis. Why my dh chose them I don't know. We do have a few other phone numbers of friends we had in that area, but V's must have been the first he came across that actually worked. Of course we had to catch up on all the news first. J. was married and living in Florida. We got his address because A wanted it. I wrote it down twice--once as R dictated it as he got it from J's Mom and a second time on a sticky note to give to A.

Who lost it.

And this was why I was using his computer to get on the net this afternoon and noticed that his sign-in name had something in it about a "hopless heart." I had to laugh. He doesn't always have the time to spell correctly. :) So I asked, "is a hopless heart one that has stopped beating?" I get his signature grin and he reddens a bit. I love it when I get him.

We found J's address. I didn't know at the time, but the reason A. wanted the address was to send J a picture of himself and his P2P crew that was taken while they were at that big ancient arena thing in Rome. Begins with a C. If I spell it wrong here, I'll never hear the end of it. :)

To old friends and fond memories.............

Monday, March 28, 2005

Moving Out

Well, my used-to-be-the-school-room is in such a mess that I've decided the only way I can "see" how to tackle it is to move out of it. I am boxing up what is on every shelf in there (three walls worth) and everything that is on any surface in there. Then will come everything that is in a plastic filing apparatus--lots of school papers there. Then I will deal with the neatly packed boxes one at a time. Of course it goes without saying that I will do quite a bit of tossing and giving away in the course of packing.

The room is so frustrating that I find myself quite hard-hearted when it comes to what I will allow to stay. I hope I can maintain the frame of mind long enough to finish. I have to.

I have hoarded all the school work/etc. in order to be able to show proof that the kids are learning, but now that DS#1 is in college, all that I feel the need to hang onto is his high school portfolio. DS#2 is now working on a computer school program that documents and tracks what he does while he does it. Keeping a good backup record of what he's doing now should suffice to show what he's been doing currently and that adequate instruction has come before so that he is capable of doing work at his grade level. The rest of the stuff is being shredded. Here in Oklahoma currently all we have to do is provide proof of "equivalent education" and attendance, and that only if someone asks about it. Once DS#2 hits high school, then I will probably start printing out work that is representative of what his is doing each year and keep it in a binder as I've done for his brother. At any rate, I am tossing stuff I never could before and my plan is to continue to shred and toss at least three trash-cans full a day until there are enough papers that I can store them correctly.

Paper has been my nemesis for some time now. When I was young, I wanted to keep everything "neat" I ever read. My closet probably had more stacks of papers in it than clothes. When I got my first job, filing was something that just ate my lunch. If I had to decide where to put it...talk about procrastination. I learned to delegate that to student help FAST. Then came our business--well, that is self-explanatory. Home schooling, taxes, on and on and on it goes. And the papers stack and stack.

Books come right behind the paper. I love books. Parting with books is difficult. Especially expensive textbooks. I am going to try selling some of those on E-Bay one more time I think here at the close of this school year when everyone starts thinking about next year. But if it doesn't go about 95% better than the last attempt, that will be the end. I'll give them away. I just want everything I'm not using GONE.

My dh will be so happy when this project is complete.

Oh, and I'm starting a serious health-improvement segment of my life. As a 20th wedding anniversary present, DH has made plans for us to CRUISE! I have wanted to go on a cruise most of my life. I love the water, I love the sun, and my sister has nothing but wonderful things to say about the ones she's been on--two or three now, can't remember. R has always said I could take someone with me, that he had no desire to go. Well, turns out a friend of ours is going in December--a friend that R & I are both very close to--and he talked my dh into the idea. My toes curl when I think about it. Then I think a little more--about me in a bathing suit--and I shudder.

I've been trying to pay more attention to eating habits anyway and I know I need to add more activity to my daily routine. Now I have all the more incentive to find the time and the discipline to stick to a better way of life. When I think of all the benefits that come with a healthier mindset, I know it's important for more than just a cruise but to enjoy my life fully. Let's face it. In a few years the kids will be out of the house and I will have time to enjoy with dh and I don't want to be wheezing and panting with each step I take, if I can take a step.

So that's where I am on this last Monday in March of 2005. The only thing still pressing is that Absolute Write Idol entry.




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Name: Carolyn
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I'm a wife, mother of 2 boys, both of whom I taught at home, and I'm a writer. I am learning American Sign Language with the goal of serving the Deaf who want to learn more about the Bible.

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